The Feeling has return... The Feeling Of hurt
Thanks Andy for Being there yesterday,Jinqwen too.. Really thanks a lot.
To someone out there who doesnt know i care:
I know You wont read this cause u don't even bother to check my blog.
I seriously have no idea why it hurts when I saw your name appear online.
It feels just like dec. The feeling of... being unable to talk to you, the feeling of being useless and maybe jealousy. I know i can't blame you for saying those stuff, for behaving that way b'coz u dont know how i feel.
or even my feelings towards you. It sure is my first time sayin all these... im not blaming you because its not entirely ur fault. my Stomach was twisting yesterday, my heart is starting to bleed.. I'm losing blood...  feel restless... I want tears to roll... however there's just Something stopping it from rolling.
that something is you.
Im Enduring and swollowing all these.
Suppressing the feeling so that it wont leak out.
I dont want tomorrow to comebecauseof good reasons.
I dont wish monday tocome
I dont want to see you.
Because U R SO NEAR... yet the feeling is just SOOOOOOO far.
Untouchable.. out of reach..