Time flies, almost the end of January already and nothing has got better but worse.. I'm such a sucker at life.

Didnt expect the event to turn out this way? Should have kept it in like how is it since I have been doing it for the past year ever since I joined the board.
Never had a chance to put in my best for the board I know, trust me I have tried.
Now that things are tense and awkward, hmm I dont ask for anything but really just forgiveness from them. They might not be the best friends I have, but they're in a way important, we have shared memories together, guys , im really sorry.

Hmm... I don't even know if I'm already regretting, maybe I do.
Just don't want to sour the situation.
I know she's really still important ,
That she holds the key to you, if. It you wouldn't have bothered about her words.
Well, it's best that we keep away?
Definitely miss you( yea just as friends)
Just want you to be happy and feel less weigh down by me.
I know you'd say things like ' no I'm not a burden' all those , really appreciate it :'( but I can't bear to let rumors/ others talking about you just cause of me. One incident is bad enough :/ don't expect you to give in to me :/ really don't deserve such a good friend like you..
Ahhhh I'm so sorry :(

So emotional right now, life is trolling me.