Half a month is gone, and almost a month after my DPA interview already, the results date is drawing nearer ,
And Os is even nearer...
Have been pretty much zoning out during lessons and my friend kind of spotted it during SS. Too easy to read.
After the Adam Khoo talk yesterday (again), while writing down my challenges I Realise they aren't exactly challenges , more of an emotional attachment.
I feel really clingy about my last point on
'have yet to have a proper conversation with him.hah'
I'm being really insecure about my next step, I mean it's clear what I want but I am lost for direction right now. So many things I'd very much love to do, but I'm too soft hearted/too concern/too competitive ...
Talking about competitive it's like,
I can frankly say I hate losing,
I hate how I spend so much effort on geography that when I saw what the teacher wrote and mark on my homework, my hopes really crashed. My efforts... Might as well anyhow do. I really feel like crying now what the shit.
I'm losing too much till I don't even know anymore.
See what I meant by lost of direction?
Three words : I am tired of putting that front. I'm weak too, but I don't announce it to the world. I like my problems close to me and those whom I trust.
But yeah I forgot I'm not exactly that important.
