I might have been cold when conversing with some friends.
I shall not be mean and say acquaintances..

It probably has got to do with many incidents which have never failed to prove that im just a mere almost non existing person who bear almost negligible importance.

To be honest whether I feel like going for her surprise birthday party or not will not make a difference. I dislike birthday parties now. Who knows thw hidden agenda behind like what if all the organiser wants was to get people to chip in to the party fees?
I have been pulled into such things before and honestly I cant afford  to spend money on things that doesnt benefit or is of great importance to me.
I cannot afford to be unappreciated again.