The worst kind of feeling often haunt you when you are alone.

I've been feeling a lot better now but as much as I want to recover(I dont feel like taking taking that medicine anymore I dont like the after effect).
Have been feeling pretty inferiored lately(like really minor feelings) but I guess I deserved it for being complacent!
Hmm and insecure too
Over thinking much!

Good news is I have done 1.5 chapter notes for Ss! Many more to go... so little time I hope I can make it:/

What more can I do?
Is it really time to wash my hands off after all I should just focus on myself.
Just because its a small success doesn't mean you stop fighting for more,have been hiding my disappointment so much that it doesnt even exist anymore.
I am TIRED of being the one who encourage one to fight on. Can I have a switch or roles? Can I be the one who people worry about rather than the one who worries? Oh people I dont have the strong will okay?
I don't care anymore.  If you do not do well it better not be my problem.
I want to stop being the one who people put their blame on. I don't want at the end of the day hearing words saying that it was because of me that one didnt perform.
Stop it.
Who will actually care that my grades have been doing nth except sliding? Who's left to understand me.... ugh