I can't even have that little selfishness
After the humiliation.
After all the stress and pain(my head literally hurts after an afternoon of stressful geography.

All I longed for at the end of the day is a hug.
A comfort to tell me that "hey it's been a tough week/day but its okay press on a little more".

Now that I am going to be really late for the meet up.
I really want to ask myself.
Have I done justice to myself? Or have I forgo priorities just for one person?
Ughh it hurts so much when I think back on the stuff you bought for me. Its like knowing that I haven't had lunch and that I was struggling so hard with geog,then after the round of "letting it out" , a tinge of guilt did ring a bell.
But its so contradicting. 
What am I suppose to do. How am I suppose to feel.
I walked away and you too turned away. I walked back and chose to take a longer route despite knowing the rush I have to face later.
It doesn't matter does it?
Looks like I've always been the one chasing after what I want.
Knowing the pain of just really walking away.. its... its like telling you that I am literally walking away because I don't care anymore. How true is that.
I dont have the mood to go out now. All I want is.. is seriously a miracle.  Thank God for making me have at least a little laugher with my girl clique(and bryan) for all the nonsense we said and did before it was all ruined.. an add on to the memorable time in peirce. 
Thank you my friends.